Thursday, December 31, 2009

Pretty day to end the year

A gorgeous day to end a rough year......perhaps tonight a toast to the future of my is alway there...
So here it is, the end of the year, the beginning of another.....and I am tired of scientology. Tired of the whole thing, the compulsion to figure out life using it as a tool, tired of the culture of the Church, and tired of the drama surrounding that culture and the people who oppose it.

I think I know enough about life now to play it.

No, I am no tech master, but I know enough to stop looking for new data for a solution and focus on implementing the stuff I have in the actual living. What value is the theory without application? What sense in solving the challenges without the significance and touch of the pain and joy, sensation, emotion and consequences?

What probably brought this on is the call last night from a flag reg selling me the newly released ACC materials, over a thousand lectures with associated transcripts, and the issues that came out of them.

As she said, if I read/listened 5 hours a day for almost a year I could get through them. Do I need to? Am I sitting in a scarcity of data? And isn't this material already condensed down into the materials for the training and processing on the bridge, so that reading every single word LRH spoke or wrote unnecessary?

Why do we humans have such a competitive drive to win life? Its not over when we reach some stage, and time is infinite. Why not savor it as it goes along? Yes advance our knowledge, but not at the expense of the full appreciation of the experience.

So I am still a scientologist. I use it. But I don't want it to define me either. Scientology is a paradigm, a set of concepts to help explain and deal with life, but yet only a subset of life itself even in its fullest sense.

I guess a reader of this could extrapolate a new years resolution or two from this.....

Perhaps a comment along those lines from you?


Friday, December 11, 2009

Not the church I joined 30 something years ago...

Morphic fields, quantum interconnectedness

Rupert Sheldrake finally has a good web presence, he's the man with the idea of Morphic fields. A morphic field would be a description of whatever its is attached to, but existing distinct of the actual thing, and something that affects and interacts with other things, usually living things.

So say you have a plant. It has a field, perhaps somehow in quantum particle/wave form or some such, that is its pattern. Or a person with a much more complex field around them, and when you get a lot of these fields together, you get a sort of automatic syncronizing.

This theory, which I admittedly dont fully grasp, would be the explanation for "spiritual" healing and other phenomenon.

Perhaps even this:

Subtle energies, a similar notion.

We have a lot to learn.

Sheldrake seems to be onto a reasonably understandable paradigm for it.

Check him out.

On a more practical note...

This is a wonderful commentary on life, creativity and choices. I feel that I would like my life simpler, and also less dependent of others. I like to cook from scratch, the work is worth the effort. I like to grow some of my own food. I find amusement in simple things....yet I find myself becoming involved in the complexity of reducing effort.

Perhaps the activity of effort is something to be relished rather than avoided?


Hubbard Communications   Office

  Saint Hill Manor, East Grinstead, Sussex

  HCO Policy Letter of 8 October 1964


  Artistic Presentation

  For some time in some quarters in Scientology we have had a
problem with regard to presentation.

  Magazines are sometimes badly proofed, books are often shabbily
done, tapes are played to the public on Woolworth recorders, etc.
In some quarters we do very well, but in many we don't.

  I have been looking this over for some time and have just
realized what it is all about.

  We live in a machine world. The whole yap of TV and newspapers is
directed toward reducing effort. The primary goal of the
civilization in which we live, it seems, is to reduce all personal
effort to zero.

  The less effort a being can confront, the more effect of effort
he becomes.

  If you reduce a man's effort output to zero you will also
collapse his bank on him.

  The modern trend of "don't do" accompanies the modern trend of an
increased percentage of the insane in the society.

  The crazier a person is, the less he accomplishes or does.

  So we live in a world which is oriented to drive men mad.

  But, more pertinent to us, we suffer from the continuous bait-"do
it the easy way." "Do it in the way that will demand the least effort."

  We see this in manufacturing particularly- the easiest way is the
cheapest way is the most profitable way.

  So we get into a "do it the easy-way."

  Well, that may apply to making spoons for profit, but it does not
apply to presentation.

  The whole world of the arts is directly opposed to the philosophy
of the business man or manufacturer.

  Art seeks to create an effect. An effect is not always created
the easy way. Indeed, the better effects are quite difficult to achieve.

  One can fall into creating easy effects to such a degree that one
fails completely.

  For instance, a dozen cakes are in competition at a county fair.
The one that wins is not the easiest cake to make. True, the cook
that made the winner may have some easy ways to short cut cake
baking. But the winning cook actually takes that extra bit of care
to make it all just right.

  It isn't magic or luck that makes the professional. It's hard won
know-how carefully applied

  A true professional may do things pretty easily from all
appearances, but he is actually taking care with each little bit
that it is just right.

  The winner has it instinctively. The loser rarely even grasps the
concept of "do it right".

  Artistic presentation always succeeds to the degree that it is
done well.

  How easily  it is done is entirely secondary.

  To the world of presentation, of putting up mock ups, the only
guide is take the care necessary to do a good job.

  To the world of the business man, the manufacturer, the primary
guide is "how can we do it easily".

  These two philosophies clash.

  We are taught daily in advertisements, by union leaders, by
socialists that DO IT WITH THE SMALLEST EFFORT is the greatest goal
in life. Do the least work for the most pay. Buy the automatic
machine that chews up the most clothes in the least time. Use the
roofing paper that goes on quickest and keeps out the least rain.
Vote for Jim X who will make all the world eat without working. Do
nothing yourself. Shove it off on the Mix Up Accounting Company-or
the man at the next desk.

  That all this leads to total dependence on gadgets, total
enslavement to mounting economic puzzles, even to total enslavement
to a Commissar Krushtoad in the next generation is neglected
utterly. That less than two centuries ago we lived quite well and
built more strongly and were a lot saner without all these ads,
tools and commissars is never mentioned.

  Man is solving himself to extinction. And all on the slogan
"Don't exert yourself".

  It's gotten so bad that people are shrugging off all
responsibility for the state, for their friends, for anything and
everything. "Nothing has anything to do with anybody" is the
epitaph that nobody will take the trouble to write on the tombstone
of this civilization.

  Now this is no rant against automation or gadgets or
self-sterilizing cat petters.

  Use all the gadgets you can lay your hands on-if they really do
work in your hands and don't absorb all your time in earning their
price or repairing their faults.

  No, my thought here is only this - keep you action level above
your gadget level.

  Keep ahead of automation. Keep ahead of do-it-for-you. Don't
disenfranchise yourself by giving all your work away-to a machine,
to a fellow worker.

  If you've got equipment do one of two things (a) Use it to
increase your production of effects or (b) Get rid of it.

  But first and foremost realize that in presenting something, in
trying to put up mock ups, that the best way isn't always the easy
way. The best way is only the more effective way.

  Work out first what effect you are trying to produce. Then when
you've got that all taped,  only then consider the easiest way to do it. And never consider the
easier way at all if it is less effective.

  Art takes that extra bit, that extra care, that bit more push for
it to be effective art.

  There is no totally easy way to produce a desirable effect.

  And the day you drop some of your ideas of the effect you want to
produce is the day you get a little older, a little weaker, a little less sane.

  So don't buy the easy way. Buy only the effective way. If some of
its points can then be made easy, good. If not, do it the hard way.

  And only if you realize this can you escape the gargantuan trap
of a society with the mass goal of "Nothing should ever be done by
anything but a machine or somebody else".


Copyright (c) 1964 by L. Ron Hubbard

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Nice summation of a certain concept by Gangaji...

"The spaciousness of silent, aware consciousness

Each of us has times in our lives that are really good and times that are really bad. And each of us has at the core that which is before time, that is free of good and bad, and shines through it without having to suffer.

At the core, in silence, is the omnipresent awareness that has never been born and can never die, that is free and conscious. Somehow in the mystery of the divine play of consciousness we appear in bodies. And then these bodies disappear or events happen to them which toss them around or glorify them or deflate them. But always there is this spaciousness of silent, aware consciousness.

Every thing is an opportunity to more deeply, more freshly, more immediately discover this silence."


Thursday, October 15, 2009

sweet hint of spring not

torrents of rain

gray gloom

secret smiles got

in my warm room.

thoughts of friends

last seen ago

never seek me

dreams they show

sleepy consciousness lost

true nature found

then back to body

mind and sound.

play spirits play!